My husband and I are in the middle of “the cycle”. It’s a cycle we can’t seem to break. When hope is lost. When it seems the end of our marriage is near. When I can’t take anymore, and I’m sure he can’t take anymore of me either.
It feels like we are pushed to the brink. Fuses are short, patience is gone. Resentment takes over. The love we once felt for each other is seemingly gone.
Is this really what God has planned for us?
The answer is no, this is not what God wants for us. I believe God desperately wants more for us. God wants forgiveness and love to win over everything else. Always.
God promises abundant life and so much more.
I believe in God’s promises. Tomorrow I will choose love and I will choose my husband once again. It’s not easy for either of us. But when we forgive, when we look at the facts, we realize that we still want each other.
Tomorrow the cycle starts over. With love anew.
I will hold on to God’s promises and the hope that this is just the season of life we are in. When we shuffle from activity to activity, focusing on the kids. When we don’t make time for our marriage.
I hold on to hope that the best is yet to come.
I understand that not every relationship can be saved. I am not saying that anyone should be a door mat or take advantage of other people.
This is just my story. I hope after reading it God moves in you to hold on a little longer.
I pray we all love more like Jesus.
I was reminded today that we are in charge of our own happiness. I think of happiness as our Jesus light, or how we shine God’s light…
This life offers us so many dark times. We don’t know why these things happen to us or those we love, but they do. In these times I pray you surround yourself with positive people, positive music, and positive thoughts. Its hard, I know.
It is in these dark times I pray we can find the light. Ask others to help us, ask friends to pray for us. Find that speck of light and focus on it. Soon that light will grow and it will melt away the darkness. It takes time, believe me, I know. But rest in God’s promises. God will never let us down.
Please remember you are never alone. God is as close as the breath in your lungs. Breathe in the spirit and let it wash over you. Look for the light and soon your light will shine bright for all to see for God’s glory.
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